Baby update! FINALLY

Poor little baby in my belly! He/she feels left out already b/c I don't post about you! Well, I did kept more record of my pregnancy with Kaya, but I am not off that much. I have my hand written notes for both. I need to get a baby book for this little one. Along with a lot of other preparation that I have not done for this one.... where at this time with Kaya, the room was ready to go, lol.

I had an appt with Dr. Ross this morning. The first thing he commented on was my weight gain over that last two visits. Prior to these visits, I had gained a total of 7 lbs. Then came the visit 3 weeks ago where I had gained 10 lbs since that last appt which was 4 weeks prior (opps, lol), now this visit (3 weeks from today) where I gained 5 lbs. He said and I do quote "I don't want to have a sumo wrestler in there".... no SH*T is all I can say, LOL. I don't want to be pushing out a sumo wrestler, LOL. I do need to watch what I am eating at times, but in all I still feel good about my weight gain. I have gained less at this point then when I was pg with Kaya. People say (may just be trying to be nice, lol) that I have gained it all in my belly. I have to agree though... b/c dang, my belly is big. I will take a pic soon and post (another thing I am late in doing).

Then comes time to measure me. He feels around for my uterus and says "wow, this is a lot lower than it should be".... then he measures down to the bottom of the baby and says "well, no this is where you should be... you are just carrying REALLY low". Again, no SH*T is my thought! This helps explain my need to waddle like a duck already and my intense lower back pain. As he said, I am tall so I have plenty of room... and with carrying so low, the baby is allowing me to breathe better. This part is true... I do remember having more problems breathing at this point with Kaya, but dang this kid is STILL in my ribs... I know that for sure!

All of my blood work and glucose test came back with flying colors.. YEAH!! In all, I am really feeling good. Yes, I am getting pretty uncomfortable and sleeping is challenging.... but I really have to be thankful as that is all I have to deal with. I try to keep in mind how easy this pregnancy has been and that this is the time for the uncomfortable part.

My mom got fired from her latest consultanting job, lol. Not fired... she was hired buy Lending Tree to be an expert witness for a huge lawsuit involved three law firms and multiple banks.... and they have settled out of court, so her work is done, lol. At any rate, her schedule was looking a little booked over the next few months, so now is more free to come for a trip before this one is born. She is coming for the first week of March. I must say, I am VERY relieved she is coming before the baby will be born. I want to get as much ready as I can... and I know she will be a huge help in that department... not to mentioned unpacking that is still to be done, and there are lots of rooms to paint, lol. She asked if I had enough for her to do if she comes for a week... I said "YES and then some!" Mark cleaned the garage out this past weekend... I was SO happy about that and let him know that! Now, the boxes that still need to be unpacked are all together and the rest is organized. The car could fit in the garage (as all the boxes and such are in the attic - love that space), but we will go through the boxes first then get the car in there. He is going to make a book shelf for Kaya this weekend... then next weekend will be start of her headboard and footboard for her big girl bed which we got a call today that it is in and ready to deliver! Kaya is so excited to have her big girl bed! I am hoping the whole transition goes well, which I am sure it will. I know Mark is anxious to finally start playing with all his woodworking tools. I imagine the fun of it might fade, but I know he will still enjoy making things... and I am all about that!


Well.... off to toss and turn in bed... lol... or fall asleep on the couch! :)

That was a bit MUCH!

Dang, what kind of mood was in on Sunday?!?!? LOL

Time to step back Meredith and set real actions in plan for 2008 instead of just rambling about all these big ideas of blah, blah, blah.... LOL

It will be a great year, this I know! I am going to make sure of that! My attitude has gotten much better about a lot things. All things in due time, that is what I say! I tend to just need the "oh" moment where I snap out of thinking in one mindset. It is funny how now (well overly the past month or so), I have become to realize that the one thing I thought I hated so much (work) is not that bad. Now, my plan is still to not work full time (that will happen one way or another as I just don't make enough money to justify two kids in daycare, nor do Mark and myself want that right now), but the idea of milking my current job for a bit longer is not so bad... after all having that extra money has a lot of benfits, like the major debt we have been able to pay off and actually being able to afford things that I would stress about otherwise.

Still.... I want to keep it simple..... so, it is just important for me to look at the big picture instead of worrying each little thing as being so bad.

OK... that is enough thought process for that! :)

My sweet girl...

Kaya is just such a sweetheart.... She woke up saying "I love you Mama", when I got home tonight she said it again as soon as I saw her and then right before she went to bed, again. Melts my heart!!! Days like today help me feel like I am a good mom.... and how lucky I really am to be Kaya's mom. Simple and sweet moments!!

Vision for 2008.....

Tis the time of year for promises to change or at least making a list of things you want to change... so hear ya go.

My vision (as I am choosing to look at things right now) for 2008 is TODAY!!!!!
TODAY = being into today and really being happy with that!!! I have said SO many times to myself that I just need to enjoy the moment, for the moments are really limited. I have had MANY events in my life that have forced me to slow down and breathe and to see the simple things. After such events, I am recharged to go back to more a more simple lifestyle, and I do for awhile... then it fades over time. Then I worry about the dumb things (as I like to call them) like "being a certain way b/c I think I need to be" or "worrying about money spent on everything" or "poor me about ". OK... reality is reality... and NO one is perfect!!! I will be FAR from perfect in 2008, that is one promise I can make and stick to for the whole year, my whole life! I know there will be MANY times where these quotes will entire my mind and come out of my mouth... but I am longing to find that person deep down inside me... the person who enjoys just playing, enjoys the simplicity of sunshine (ok, there is nothing simple about sunshine but that is another post, lol), and enjoys just being in each moment. I think that is my biggest struggle of late (ok, for a LONG time)... I can enjoy the fun of just playing with Kaya... then I look around and my mind starts racing with not only all the cleaning I need to do but also all the things I want to fix in this house (irony of owning a home... makes me miss renting, lol).

All and all.... that person, the simple one, is still there... often fighting with the other person within me, lol. In most things, I tend to go with the simple choices... simple tastes, simple desires (well, hubby might disagree, lol, but he would agree after pushed), simple style (that hasn't changed much over the years), simple wishes. BUT one thing I am always saying "I have to do because I just have to".... well this saying does NOT fit in my simple lifestyle... as in that world, my lifestyle is completely in my control and there is nothing I say I "have" to do (besides for maybe showering, lol) instead I say I "want" or "enjoy" . The reality is.. everything is a choice!! Getting out of bed is a choice, going to work/not going to work is a choice, just playing with my daughter, letting her be herself, letting myself be myself, loving others and myself (hard yes... but so necessary)... on and on... all CHOICES.

OK, Meredith.. a bit deep for a Sunday (the last Sunday of January 2008 and the one month birthday of my newest nephew)... I agree completely!!! Where did this all come from?? Well, I am usually VERY anti making New Years resolutions... as I am usually very anti things that a lot of people do... stubborn nature in myself, lol. BUT, this year I feel very different. Last year was in all a very difficult year personally... between losing a friend that I felt like I had a long future with, working because I felt like I "had" to do and thus creating major stress in my whole family's life due to my unhappiness, to other struggles... I feel like I let last year happen instead of making it happen, if that makes sense. 2008 WILL be a year that I make HAPPEN... mark my words on Sunday, January 27, 2008!!!

With all of these deep thoughts... I think this picture sums up everything I feel right now! Here are three children (Lila-5, Kaya-2, John-8) enjoying a simple moment with sticky plastic bugs... we can all learn a lot from this picture... and I plan on doing just that TODAY and tomorrow's TODAY (as every day is a new TODAY in my vision for 2008). Enjoy TODAY every day!! Now, I off to do the one "must" of showering, LOL.