Going with the flow!!

That is a saying that is even more important to me now that I am a mother of two!! I remember when I became a mother on October 11, 2005... I adapted that saying as best as I could at the time, but I was uptight about little things (like trying not to give Kaya a paci too soon for fear that breastfeeding might be compromised). Then the night of November 19, 2005 came and everything changed. In an instant, the saying "going with the flow" was my life blood and was what kept me going! I remember thinking... we Kaya at 5.5 weeks old survived an apartment fire... anything was possible... and the little stuff like a paci while BFing was so insufficient.

Fast forward to May 3, 2008 and the birth of my second child. This saying was already a part of this little life and my philosophy... after all, I had 6.5 weeks of anticipation of Connor's birth from when I had pre-term labor. The month of April was changeling.. I will not deny that, but the whole time... I kept thinking "go with the flow" and it will happen in its own time. So.. I am far from perfect (this I know, lol) but I really think I have adapting this saying quite well. This past Thursday was a good example. I was looking forward to a day with Mark and Connor (a day for the three of us while Kaya was at school... nice to get one day with just my boys, lol). After dropping Grandma at the airport, Mark calls to say he is coming home and bringing Kaya because she just threw up in the car. I will admit, I had a moment where I thought "dang... no day with just Mark and Connor" but that was very brief. I was worried about Kaya and felt bad for the poor kid. We had Connor's first appt with Dr Rosser that afternoon... but that was the only thing planned. It ended up being a very nice day as our new family of four... and all day we just had the idea of "going with the flow". If I have learned anything as a mother, it is this... things can change on a dime, so you better flow with it or things are going to be a bigger struggle.