Letter of the day is S

S seems to be my letter as I keep thinking of a ton of words starting with S to express my emotions lately.

~Sleep (or lack of): I usually have 1-2 sleepless nights per month (sometimes not even one though). Lately, I seem to be having 1-2 per WEEK!!!

~Stress: Hmm, do you think my current stress level is largely causing the above? YES! My nature is to be stressed anyway, but I have gotten really good (or at least I think so) about keeping most of my stress in check... by NOT over committing myself, taking each thing with stride. However I am MORE stressed RIGHT now than I can recall being in some years...... even through some very stressful life situations. I have had a strange chest pain for about 3 weeks now... it is getting better. I totally think this is my body warning me! That and a direct outcome of stress and anxiety. Oh boy Meredith... get it in check!

~So in love with my husband: We are REALLY struggling...... but I love him very much and am getting reminders of the things that brought us to marry each other almost 8 years ago to the day (6-16-01). Sometimes you need to remember back to move forward!! Hey, I like that saying! :)

~Slowly getting perspective: Yes, it is SLOW... but I am making progress.

~School (VBS and my return to school): VBS starts tonight (Sunday)! 3 weeks ago, I was stressed about all of it..... just wondering HOW I would be able to lead 3rd graders. Well with lots of prayer and listening to God, support and help from my AWESOME co-leaders and preparation... I am SO excited for VBS and feel like I am going to ROCK as a teacher/leader!! I canNOT wait to see all that God has plan to occur this week! My return to school will either be Spring semester or next Fall.... 2010 will be my return to academia and I am excited!

~Sad: Well, this comes with the above territory. I have been MORE sad and having little crying episodes. I like to blame some of that on hormones, lol. Really though, there is some truth there. I have recently stopped BFing #2 and starting BC pills for the first time in 5 years... hmm, ya think my hormones are a bit messed up?

~Sex: Well, yes I will say this one. My sex drive went WILD after C was born... well now, not so much. Again, it is all connected with the above things too.... this I know. Just another thing on my mind a lot lately.

~Slacker: no explanation there, lol. Slacker side of me has kicked in HIGH gear lately!

~Shape: as in I am working to get my booty (and the rest of my body) in shape.. and this is helping both my stress and my well being. This is a very personal thing for me to work on... yet it is difficult physically and mentally. I am really trying to overcome my hip problems, but it is hard for my mental outlook. I am NOT defeated though!

~Sunshine: I LOVE, LOVE the SUNSHINE!!! This does help my mood...... not as much as I would like right now, but it would be MUCH worse if not for the sunshine!

Back to Sleep...... hoping to get some of that now as I have a VERY busy day ahead!!!