Fuzzy........and thanks!

Cry out for insight and understanding.... Proverbs 2:3

So, my heart is SUPER heavy right now. Yesterday was a roller coaster of a day emotional and just felt fuzzy. I had a bad feeling in my gut all day after knowing things were not just ok. Thankfully things are ok (ish) for now and for that I am so thankful to God. If you read this, please pray for a heart that needs prays.... a person who is struggling so much who just needs prayers and peace. Thank you.

Yesterday was my littlest sisters birthday.. she is now 20, no longer a teenager. Hmm... interesting with that timing, as I have been feeling called to help teenagers a lot lately. I have had this calling for some time (months... since the beginning of the year really) and have been trying to pin point what God is telling me (all things show in due time, this I believe.. but sometimes it takes a long time, lol). I believe that I finally figured it out.... Young Life. YL is how I came to know about Jesus Christ... and how I was saved at 15 years old. A time in my life that was not pretty... a very dark time... a time when I did some things that I am not proud of.... thankful for that time though.. as it has made me the person I am today... SO thankful I lived through that time. So, I have started contact with the local YL area director and so excited to get plugged into YL again!

So.. it has been on my mind a LOT lately... my life when I was a teenager, that is. Again, God's timing is very purposeful.. this I know, but it still blows me away! Then yesterday... a teenager who needs help..... a call from God.

Yesterday was a full day... coffee in the morning with some great ladies.... frantically making calls to check on said person... great phone conversation with my little sister whom I am trying to convince to move here to attend college... more phone calls (spend the day on the phone it seemed.. but all good as Sprint announced yesterday that I have unlimited calling now.. sweet.. thanks Sprint).... thinking (plan/organize) about more things that are upcoming looking at my calendar wondering how October got so full already..... enjoying my day with Bug.... picking K up from school with her super happy face.... holding her and Bug extra tight this day... thinking about 9-11-01......... more thoughts about my extended family and some resolution that is needed..... enjoying a nice morning run/walk to start the day..... some good sleep at night... then awake and mind going again..... and now it is Friday.... September 11, 2009.

I go to my bible and open to Proverbs because really Proverbs is just amazing... I begin skimming and these words JUMPED from the page..... Cry out for insight and understanding......

Thank you God..... your timing is perfect. Thank you for life... for saving one today... thank you for your word... for your love and for your patience.. thank you!