Worries or Reminders?

I have been in a funk for about a week now. Not sure the exact cause of the "funk". The other night when I was going to bed, I had the weirdest feeling that we were missing someone. As I lied in bed, I counted through all the people in the house, and we were all accounted for at that time. Then I thought about the baby... yes, still here. Recently I have heard of a few really sad stories involving new babies... one were a mother did not make it through a c-section and now two stories of babies at full term (or close to it) that had passed. Oh, and we have gotten the phone call from Mark's parents that his grandmother might pass any day. So much horrible news has made me pay attention to each little movement in my belly more and more. I have moments where I think "he/she is not moving much".. then I get a kick here and there. Most of yesterday, the baby seemed less active... then Mark and I went to a movie last night and the baby was having a kicking storm.

Do these events mean something about this baby?? I think so.... I think it is a way of reminding me how precious life is and how to be thankful for the little things! Something I had a hard time doing this morning when Kaya was being extra difficult and I lost my cool. Then I took her temp... and she is running a low grade fever. Guilt then set in.... then it was ok. Again, do not sweat the small stuff. Enjoy each moment to the fullest..... relax and breathe!!! These truly are things I say to myself and things I believe very strongly in healing just about anything.

So... for the mother who lost her life delivering her new little baby and the families who lost their babies in an instant.... I pray for you all! My heart aches for your loss!!!!! For everyone else.... take time to reflect and breathe..... look around and show love to all!!